Saturday December 22, 2018

Winter Solstice & Full Moon in Cancer 12:49 pm EST (9:49 am PST)

 

Jeannette Walls, author of The Glass Castle (one of my favorite books/memoirs), talks in an interview with Jon Foss about demon fighting. In her book, Jeanette's child-self wakes up in the middle of the night, positive that she has seen a demon under her bed. Terrified, she runs to tell her dad, Rex, who immediately takes action, telling her that it's time to go demon fighting. Clad with weapons in hand they hunt, in the middle of the night, their "demons." This becomes a central theme in the book. In the interview, Walls reflects that it "took me a long time to understand that I was running from my demon. The thing is if you run from a demon it will chase you, and my demon was myself: it was my own past. And dad gave me the tools and the courage to turn around and confront that, and he was absolutely right: you run from your demon and it will chase you but if you can confront it, it can't hurt you. What you've got to do is make friends with your demon or put it to work for you."  

 

The moon symbolizes your inner life and the way you express that part of yourself in the world. Do you hide your true nature or some part of yourself for fear that others won’t accept you? It may be time to do some demon hunting, Rex Walls style. Feelings surrounding authenticity and your place in the world can come up now. When the moon is full in the sign of the crab, emotions come to the surface more readily and the best medicine is to feel it all.

 

The Moon, in its own sign of Cancer, is emphasizing the themes of home, family, the past and ancestral roots. Home is anywhere you feel a sense of belonging and connection. Jeanette Walls grew up moving frequently from one home to the next - essentially "on the run" due to her family's dysfunctional lifestyle. As a young adult, she craved stability and security (after all, her sun sign is Taurus) and she worked her way up the ranks in her career, achieving worldly success. Jeanette admits that she eventually realized that she was living a life that felt empty, insincere. Writing her memoir, The Glass Castle, was her way of reconnecting with her past and her truth- accepting herself fully. When honoring the self (true needs, values, etc.) and practicing self-care, you feel a sense of belonging and contentment that extends out into the world. There may be a pull during this full moon phase between your outer and inner life and a call back "home."

 

Mars and Chiron both in vulnerable and compassionate Pisces are making squares (difficult aspects) to this Cancer full moon – this is called a T-Square in Astrology and it can bring a feeling of tension and of being at odds with yourself or some aspect of your life. Heightened emotions can be balanced with self-care practices, and most importantly, honoring and accepting yourself with all your beauty and wounds.

 

I remember a friend of mine saying, years ago, "I have no past." It was an attempt, I believe, to deny, to erase his past experiences. This never works. As Walls expressed in the interview, the past will find you; in her case, she was on her way to a "fabulous" party in NYC when she looked out the cab window and saw her mother rooting through the garbage. She ducked down in her seat and asked the cab driver to take her back home. She no longer felt the desire to celebrate because she knew, on a deeper level, that although she was living a "good life," she was also denying an essential aspect of her being and it was going to find her, again and again, until she was ready to confront and embrace it. This is kind of how Chiron (noted above) works; in Astrology Chiron is referred to as the "wounded healer" because Chiron symbolizes where we have been wounded deeply and profoundly and, yet, within those wounds is also great potential for healing and for serving others.

 

There is the potential for healing now but you must be willing to do the work, to claim and own your past experiences - not for the sake of dwelling in them, but to sit with any discomfort just long enough to move through the emotions and get to the other side. What awaits you is the amazing and liberating feeling of being comfortable in your own skin. Any issues that come up during this full moon may be connected to home/family and career/social standing.

 

We are finally closing up a year of retrograde planets and, after today, the days grow longer by one minute- Woo! This is a special time, symbolizing the balance of dark and light in our lives. Don’t allow fear to hold you back. It's time to move forward into the bright and bold light. 

 

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